Regrets That You Can't Forget

No one should ever have regrets about their life, but that is just one of the many facets of life. No matter how well we believe our lives are, we tend to forget things over the years that affected the live we lead. The bad or negatives seem to turn into the good and positives.

I find myself sometime regretting things I had not thought about in a long time. It would just hit me being keyed by something that was currently happening. Sometimes, it makes me feel so low, I wish I could do it again, differently. Other times, I would feel so high, I wish I would never come back down.

Then I begin comparing my life to the past. Thinking about what the changes would be if I done something differently, the end results. No matter how bad I want something I let slip away back, I would not change my life today. I have three children, the first being a boy. Would I still have children today if I had stayed with this woman or that woman? I do not know, but I do know, I love my children, and could not face life without them. Nor my wife.

From the time I was sixteen, I wanted a baby, so over the years I tried, and I tried. This woman, that woman and a sperm count. Hey, the count was very good, so what was wrong? Birth control? They said they were not using, and I hate condoms. Only one woman was blessed to have them for me.

Other regrets that I have experienced were interpersonal relationships, my music, my writing, my job and my friends. Hey, I am the Last Partner, fated to forever be alone. Either by my own design or by fate.